I haven't been to the gym in over a week. I have been sick sick sick again and again.
Here's where it hurts:
ears/ear canals
head
back
shoulders
shoulder blades
right knee
right ankle
right foot
left calf
left foot (top)
hips
upper lip
stomach
bowels
I am exhausted. Really down for the count. Really out of it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Month Two - Week Three - Day Two
I worked out on the elliptical for 20 minutes yesterday. I'm still sore in certain areas, and it feels great.
Today I also got some work done on my reality pitch. Not a lot, but it's better than before. We're meeting tomorrow.
Today I also got some work done on my reality pitch. Not a lot, but it's better than before. We're meeting tomorrow.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Month Two - Week Three - Day One
257 today. Hm. But I ate pancakes for dinner last night. So I guess I'm not complaining. I am always aware, though, in the back of my mind, that this progress has to be ramped up. When I get back from IA, next week things have to get serious.
How long have I been saying that? When I get back from...when x is over...????
I still feel ill, which I hate. Cold sores. Ick.
I want a new car. I want to be frugal. I want to be smart. I want to be happy with what I have.
How long have I been saying that? When I get back from...when x is over...????
I still feel ill, which I hate. Cold sores. Ick.
I want a new car. I want to be frugal. I want to be smart. I want to be happy with what I have.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Month Two - Week Two - Day Five
259.0 lbs this morning. I nearly burst into tears. The thing is, for most of last year I was around 253. So I've settled in at this new, higher rate, and it's killing me. It's so discouraging.
Gym after work today, and work is a 1/2 day for me. Errands to run.
I've applied my tax refund monies toward good things like an emergency fund, paying off debt, and a down payment on a new used car. I'm trying to up my credit rating so I can get a lower interest rate on a car, and maybe pay a little less each month, or at least the same amount for more car. Something like that. Something good. I'm trying to stay on top of my funds, build a buffer, be able to have nice things. The goal is to spend less than I earn, right? Why is that so hard? I wouldn't be making ends meet if it weren't for my bonus and refund. Then again, I am accelerating payments on my cards. Still, it's a wake up call.
But like my weight, because I can squeeze and manipulate my way around it, I'm not worried yet. I do want to get to the point where I use my rewards cards for all purchases and pay them off immediately, before the bill comes. And so the other cards are just for show, just for fun, just in case, to be phased out over the course of a year, before annual payments are due. After I have the new car. Once my credit is up.
Are we going to buy a house? Are we going to get married? I wonder all the time. But truthfully, I'm prolly not there yet. I'm lose in my supermarket. I'm overwhelmed and under motivated. I'm fat and I'm lazy.
Gym after work today, and work is a 1/2 day for me. Errands to run.
I've applied my tax refund monies toward good things like an emergency fund, paying off debt, and a down payment on a new used car. I'm trying to up my credit rating so I can get a lower interest rate on a car, and maybe pay a little less each month, or at least the same amount for more car. Something like that. Something good. I'm trying to stay on top of my funds, build a buffer, be able to have nice things. The goal is to spend less than I earn, right? Why is that so hard? I wouldn't be making ends meet if it weren't for my bonus and refund. Then again, I am accelerating payments on my cards. Still, it's a wake up call.
But like my weight, because I can squeeze and manipulate my way around it, I'm not worried yet. I do want to get to the point where I use my rewards cards for all purchases and pay them off immediately, before the bill comes. And so the other cards are just for show, just for fun, just in case, to be phased out over the course of a year, before annual payments are due. After I have the new car. Once my credit is up.
Are we going to buy a house? Are we going to get married? I wonder all the time. But truthfully, I'm prolly not there yet. I'm lose in my supermarket. I'm overwhelmed and under motivated. I'm fat and I'm lazy.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Month Two - Week Two - Day Four
Sound the trumpets - I'm down another half pound! I know this weighing in shit is getting a tad obsessive, but I'm trying to figure out what works and what doesn't.
No workout today as I'm dealing with my car's oil change and whatnot. It's probably good to take a day off - I upped my speed on the treadmill a bit (won't even post it because it's so laughably slow to the average consumer) and I went for a full 40 minutes. I am getting closer to a decent walk time and I'm thrilled. I have to keep pushing, continue to bust out of the comfort zone.
You know, I've been so desensized by the diet-mania of our culture that I have no idea what a healthy amount of daily carbs looks like. My fitday.com calorie counter shows me the number of carbs I'm ingesting and I think they're through the roof, but I don't know if that's true or not. I know if I bump them down a bit I will lose more, but this isn't the time for that. Yet.
Financially, I've been doing some good things. My Walgreen's visit today resulted in a $4.18 total, saving me over $24. And I bought good stuff, like Bounty paper towels and Nivea and Progresso soup. Nothing off-brand or weird. I also scored a $25 gift card for transferring a prescription - I plan to use the money toward detergent and other "higher ticket" items.
Creatively, I've not done much lately, but that (like everything else!) is about to change. Our contact in LA has a deal with a major network, so I need to get rolling on my awesome ideas. I think something can come of this.
I've got to make a valentine's card for J tomorrow, something sweet. Also have to get back to the gym.
No workout today as I'm dealing with my car's oil change and whatnot. It's probably good to take a day off - I upped my speed on the treadmill a bit (won't even post it because it's so laughably slow to the average consumer) and I went for a full 40 minutes. I am getting closer to a decent walk time and I'm thrilled. I have to keep pushing, continue to bust out of the comfort zone.
You know, I've been so desensized by the diet-mania of our culture that I have no idea what a healthy amount of daily carbs looks like. My fitday.com calorie counter shows me the number of carbs I'm ingesting and I think they're through the roof, but I don't know if that's true or not. I know if I bump them down a bit I will lose more, but this isn't the time for that. Yet.
Financially, I've been doing some good things. My Walgreen's visit today resulted in a $4.18 total, saving me over $24. And I bought good stuff, like Bounty paper towels and Nivea and Progresso soup. Nothing off-brand or weird. I also scored a $25 gift card for transferring a prescription - I plan to use the money toward detergent and other "higher ticket" items.
Creatively, I've not done much lately, but that (like everything else!) is about to change. Our contact in LA has a deal with a major network, so I need to get rolling on my awesome ideas. I think something can come of this.
I've got to make a valentine's card for J tomorrow, something sweet. Also have to get back to the gym.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Month Two - Week Two - Day Three
Today is good. 258.0. That's a good place to be. Not that I want to be here for long, but I'll take it for today.
13 lbs until I'm at the weight I was at this time in 2006. Then it's unchartered territory -don't really know what my weight was for years.
I walked for 37 minutes yesterday, not bad at all. There were moments I felt light as air, as if I were gliding.
The Urban Hermit survived on 800 calories a day and lost over 100 lbs in a few months. I don't think I could pull that sort of a starvation diet off. I don't know if I could handle it. But he got his bills paid, he got out of debt. That does appeal to me.
There's a streak coming up, March-April, where I probably won't be doing any traveling or anything special. I'm thinking it's a good time to get a little more drastic.
I'm wearing a favorite cardigan today, also favorite argyle socks. And meeting a friend for lunch. Life is good.
13 lbs until I'm at the weight I was at this time in 2006. Then it's unchartered territory -don't really know what my weight was for years.
I walked for 37 minutes yesterday, not bad at all. There were moments I felt light as air, as if I were gliding.
The Urban Hermit survived on 800 calories a day and lost over 100 lbs in a few months. I don't think I could pull that sort of a starvation diet off. I don't know if I could handle it. But he got his bills paid, he got out of debt. That does appeal to me.
There's a streak coming up, March-April, where I probably won't be doing any traveling or anything special. I'm thinking it's a good time to get a little more drastic.
I'm wearing a favorite cardigan today, also favorite argyle socks. And meeting a friend for lunch. Life is good.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Month Two - Week Two - Day One
I lost and gained weight over the weekend. 260.5 is where I stood this morning.
Other things that happened:
1. my back hurts, not sure how it happened, but it got worse over the weekend. then better. then I fell on the ice this morning.
2. I have to have a root canal. breaking my heart. how much will it cost?
3. my house is a mess. my home is a mess. my furniture is falling apart. my life is a mess.
4. my ears hurt.
5. jason's mom is mean, I had a bad time at bob's party. And I felt like a selfish jerk for not getting into it, not "having personality." but I wanted to sulk. jason ignored me and then he felt bad. I know he really loves me, but I felt bad. i want to move away from his family.
6. my eyes are heavy and tired and I just want to go home. how long until I can leave? i don't really know. Gwen could call at any minute. i don't want that to happen. I don't want to hear from here.
7. tomorrow I have to be bright eyed, bushy-tailed, and really good at my job.
8. i'm so far behind on pitches it's sad sad sad. I need to be proactive with my dreams!
9. need to pick up some valentine's day cards and some birthday cards and I think my tax refund is coming this week and I need to spend it wisely
10. also, how is it that other people have so much money? they buy houses and furniture and go on vacation and i don't seem to have anything but more bills and stupid little bills and crap
11. i think i spend far too much money on food. i think my lunches need to be 1/2 a bag of frozen mixed veggies and a protein. maybe that's what my breakfasts need to be, too. not quite sure yet, but that's what I'm thinking.
12. i do like wheaties.
Other things that happened:
1. my back hurts, not sure how it happened, but it got worse over the weekend. then better. then I fell on the ice this morning.
2. I have to have a root canal. breaking my heart. how much will it cost?
3. my house is a mess. my home is a mess. my furniture is falling apart. my life is a mess.
4. my ears hurt.
5. jason's mom is mean, I had a bad time at bob's party. And I felt like a selfish jerk for not getting into it, not "having personality." but I wanted to sulk. jason ignored me and then he felt bad. I know he really loves me, but I felt bad. i want to move away from his family.
6. my eyes are heavy and tired and I just want to go home. how long until I can leave? i don't really know. Gwen could call at any minute. i don't want that to happen. I don't want to hear from here.
7. tomorrow I have to be bright eyed, bushy-tailed, and really good at my job.
8. i'm so far behind on pitches it's sad sad sad. I need to be proactive with my dreams!
9. need to pick up some valentine's day cards and some birthday cards and I think my tax refund is coming this week and I need to spend it wisely
10. also, how is it that other people have so much money? they buy houses and furniture and go on vacation and i don't seem to have anything but more bills and stupid little bills and crap
11. i think i spend far too much money on food. i think my lunches need to be 1/2 a bag of frozen mixed veggies and a protein. maybe that's what my breakfasts need to be, too. not quite sure yet, but that's what I'm thinking.
12. i do like wheaties.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Month Two - Week One - Day Five
So far this week I'm pleased - I'm back down to 259.5. I had a great day at the gym Wednesday, really worked hard and walked for 37 minutes, at a decent pace. I've rested for a day and now I'm going back tonight.
I'm sort of dreading this weekend, because of the surprise party. J's family really gets under my skin sometimes. Oh well, I have to not be stressed. I have to be calm and good and just do my best.
I'm working on better money management - but it's difficult right now. There are some expenses coming up - AAA membership, oil change, car insurance - that make it difficult.
Creatively, I've not done much, either. I did order some paperweights so I can make something cool. I really need to get back to my pitches.
I'm sort of dreading this weekend, because of the surprise party. J's family really gets under my skin sometimes. Oh well, I have to not be stressed. I have to be calm and good and just do my best.
I'm working on better money management - but it's difficult right now. There are some expenses coming up - AAA membership, oil change, car insurance - that make it difficult.
Creatively, I've not done much, either. I did order some paperweights so I can make something cool. I really need to get back to my pitches.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Month Two - Week One - Day Three
261.5 today. That's down. That's good. I didn't go to the gym yesterday, as I had a hair appointment. I feel so much better with pruned eyebrows!
I made a list of rewards for losing weight yesterday. I've got 10, 20, 30, 40, and 50 lbs set up.
10 lbs - new Sigg water bottles ($40)
20 lbs - day off work
30 lbs - new running shoes ($130)
40 lbs - tailor ($50)
50 lbs - flea market shopping trip ($150)
These are all things I want to do, so I'll need to set up a savings account so I have enough money.
Once I hit goal (150) I'm going to go to NYC for a weekend, I think, and see Ann.
So I've been logging food and exercise on FitDay and I'm not eating as much as I thought, at least calorie wise.
Today I need to spend more time at the gym. I need to break out of my comfort zone. Sure, 20 minutes on the treadmill minimum (I'm just going to slow down when I get tired and then go some more!), but I should maybe add in the bike or something else to help burn more calories. I need to stop with the excuses!
I made a list of rewards for losing weight yesterday. I've got 10, 20, 30, 40, and 50 lbs set up.
10 lbs - new Sigg water bottles ($40)
20 lbs - day off work
30 lbs - new running shoes ($130)
40 lbs - tailor ($50)
50 lbs - flea market shopping trip ($150)
These are all things I want to do, so I'll need to set up a savings account so I have enough money.
Once I hit goal (150) I'm going to go to NYC for a weekend, I think, and see Ann.
So I've been logging food and exercise on FitDay and I'm not eating as much as I thought, at least calorie wise.
Today I need to spend more time at the gym. I need to break out of my comfort zone. Sure, 20 minutes on the treadmill minimum (I'm just going to slow down when I get tired and then go some more!), but I should maybe add in the bike or something else to help burn more calories. I need to stop with the excuses!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Month Two - Week One - Day One
Wow, so the first month was a bust! I'm at 261.5 this morning, so no improvement there.
The Steelers won the Super Bowl - that makes me happy! The online company I filed my taxes with messed everything up, so I have to start over from scratch.
I've paid my bills this pay period and may have enough to get through until the next paycheck, so that's definitely a bonus.
I've planned a trip home and I get to see my two best friends, and I don't have to take any time off! That is a HUGE bonus and a blessing and I'm so appreciative. I'll also get to spend some time with my grandparents and relax a bit. I'm really thankful. Did I mention I don't have to use any of my coveted vacation days?
What else? Hm. I'm going to the gym after work. I have some books about collage and I'm going to try to make it happen. I worked a couple of days last week organizing my closet and bedroom and while I still have a LONG way to go I'm closer than before and things are looking better.
Going out to dinner with family tonight. Food gets a lot more strict tomorrow.
Life is good. I need to remember that. Oh, and we saw the Wrestler this weekend and it broke my heart into a million billion pieces.
The Steelers won the Super Bowl - that makes me happy! The online company I filed my taxes with messed everything up, so I have to start over from scratch.
I've paid my bills this pay period and may have enough to get through until the next paycheck, so that's definitely a bonus.
I've planned a trip home and I get to see my two best friends, and I don't have to take any time off! That is a HUGE bonus and a blessing and I'm so appreciative. I'll also get to spend some time with my grandparents and relax a bit. I'm really thankful. Did I mention I don't have to use any of my coveted vacation days?
What else? Hm. I'm going to the gym after work. I have some books about collage and I'm going to try to make it happen. I worked a couple of days last week organizing my closet and bedroom and while I still have a LONG way to go I'm closer than before and things are looking better.
Going out to dinner with family tonight. Food gets a lot more strict tomorrow.
Life is good. I need to remember that. Oh, and we saw the Wrestler this weekend and it broke my heart into a million billion pieces.
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